Author Archives: KatStyles

Freedom Freedom means many things. I’ve been couch sitting all day today.  I’m frozen. I’m on the edge of literally letting my life fall apart. I’m on the brink of discovering true freedom for the first time in my adult life.  Everything terrifies me.  Everything. I turned my cell phone off to charge today, andContinue reading “Freedom to Love Me”

fear rules me my hands shake, unsure of what to do, to think. my heart is thumping so loud, i can hear nothing else. i’m tell myself, almost minute by minute to “not be afraid”. this is a familiar feeling to me, except this time, its like fear on crack. i feel myself shutting down,Continue reading “paws a ‘shakin”

Do you ever find yourself facing the scariest parts of yourself? Well, that’s where I am tonight. Looking at things I don’t really want to see. Facing truths I’m not sure I’m strong enough to bear. Oh well. Shadow dancing and ghost writing. Reconnecting with a past that feels as if it’s right behind me,Continue reading “Walk like the angels…”

This has been a week, and it is only Tuesday. Everything is so hard, really hard. Both of my kids are crashing around me each in their own different ways. Resorting to coffee and the promise of writing to soothe my soul. I never imagined or could conceive that life could get THIS hard….but itContinue reading “White Hot Snow”

Sitting alone in the darkness of my bedroom is where I find the solace to fall apart..again. In my 20’s, my life seemed hard. It wasn’t. It was intense, magical and shiny. I believed in me, in having time to find everything important in my future. I thought time would move slow, like it alwaysContinue reading “treading”

Ironic much? I self identify as a writer. A writer of prose. A brain chemist. One who takes thoughts straight out of your head, and writes them down…for prosperity… So how did I get here? Simply put 2018 has been the worst year of my life, for so many reasons, on so many levels. ItContinue reading “January 28, 2019”